June 9th - no sirens or flashing lights

I'm having a mild panic attack now due to lack of sleep but I have a refill of my drug of choice being prepped for me at Walgreens. This could turn out to be a happy day. :-)

My next doc appt is in a month and there is absolutely no way to get in before that. There is a 7 month wait to see this dude anyway. He's not THAT cute. But he is a very patient, God-loving doctor and I'll go no where else. I think we may have to re-adjust my drugs or levels again.

I had really heavy burdens last week and I think I'm still carrying them. Oh, there was nothing wrong in my life but I manage to be the catch-all for others problems. I can see that I help others by doing this but then what. I just don't have the ability to let things roll off my back.

Hold on. I think my meds are starting to work. :) God loves me!

My stress this morning could be because I just paid bills....or attempted to. I wrote the checks, sealed the envelopes and set them by the door. They can't go out yet. Likely a contribution to me anxiety right now.

Here's me buying more trouble, but I'm wondering if God is having me learn how to handle issues now because I'll need the practice for later. I know someone who had major depression issues about 10 years ago and now her husband is losing his life to cancer. Did she need the trauma in her life to prepare her for what was ahead? Now the trouble - what is ahead for me?

Can't we just skip to the streets of gold part? That would be fun. Can't we avoid the wicked witch of the west? (No, I'm not refering to myself....or my mother.....or my mother-in-law)

Good news. There's always a bright side. I finally finished creating my Current River 2007 Storybook. (I have perfectionist tendencies as my grammar-correcting mother-in-law pointed out) I did a 12x12 album all on the computer and I used a lot of scenery pictures as my backgrounds. I am thoroughly impressed with what technology and Creative Memories have allowed us to do with photographs. You all have GOT to see this book! Seeing it online does not do it justice. We had an unveiling last night for the Brown family. The gathering also included food. Food is always a major attractant for Browns. Maybe part of my "down-ness" today is that Devin didn't look at the book. He said (twice) that he wanted to look at it WITH me yet his evening included computer and bed. Yeah, sore spot.

But my book is awesome. It is beautiful. And it contains God's creations in the forms of nature and His people. Evelyn was to use the same kind of format to showcase her pictures from China.

Again, no pictures in this blog. But isn't a blog for writing/typing/sharing/venting?

Thank you for the therapy session. Talking to Shawanda at Verizon and Rathish at Capital One weren't nearly as helpful.

High is only supposed to be 89 today - 60% chance of rain. Amen.
103 in Connecticut and they generally don't have air conditioners. Shannon's mom is there and she spent an hour yesterday sitting in the car for cool air.

Oh! And we found snake eggs in the yard yesterday. Let me tell you how excited I am!! :(
Finally, someone moved them to the backyard this morning. Want one?

Ok. I'm done. I was just going to type until my mom got here but she's already 17 minutes late. Could be hours.

Love to you all!
We start Battlefield of the Mind Bible study tomorrow. I think I REALLY need that one.